Today is kinda blah for me! I do not like these kinds of days. Depression is an issue in our family. It actually wasn’t much of an issue for me until a few months after I finished my cancer treatments. I do not live with depression now per say but I do have to fight it rather frequently. I am not depressed today but certainly . . . ho-hum. Mornings are the most difficult time of day for me. And I LOVE early morning. I used to relish getting up with the sun. It is rather hard to describe why I struggle with mornings. Certainly I am tired and don’t want to crawl out of my comfy nest but there is more to it than being tired. I find so many things looming ahead of me that I just know I am going to fail at, that I dread even starting. Now, as I type this I realize that Satan has found an area where I am weak and he is taking full advantage. Yet even knowing this, I fight to get going. And I kinda-sorta-in-a-round-about-way procrastinate when I do get up. I have my quiet time/office time right away. I tend to spend time over-organizing with lists and lesson plans and charts. I love these things and in many ways they are great tools and are helpful. But in the morning when I am in the funky-funk they delay me from the inevitable. I am amazing under pressure and under a timeline. I shock myself. So I wonder if I somehow subconsciously wait til I am down to the wire to get my groove on.  I just don’t understand me. I decided to take a few pics of things I must accomplish today and post them here as an accountability tool. I am going to embarrass myself into action.

“Groceries from this weekend that need to be put away but cannot until I clean out the pantry.”“The little pantry that needs a serious clean out.”“Various Household decorations that need to be sorted and packed that have occupied the couch for nearly a week.”“Our temporary school table (our real one is in the middle of our packing area).”

We didn’t do school Friday and aren’t doing school today. That frustrates me beyond measure but I didn’t have things perfectly ready so we won’t do it. I am an all or nothing thinker. Some days I can close my eyes and get past that kind of thinking and some days (like today) I cannot.

Time for a new subject!

Yesterday we went to Catalina State Park with my brother and sister in law and their kids. It was such a gorgeous day for Tucson. It is actually spring here in Tucson which bums be out because we just began winter temperatures after Thanksgiving. But it is beautiful nonetheless.

“As you can see, lots of green grass but the trees are still bare!”“My sweet nephew enjoying the hike in the back pack.”

“There were some wonderfully gnarled and low branched trees for the kids to climb.”“We were surrounded by the Catalina Mountains on all sides.”“The hubs wearing CJ’s t-shirt on his head.”“The wash was barely running from melting snow from the Catalina’s peaks. The kids rolled up their jeans and got in anyway!”“CJ had his shirt off the entire time we were there. I am going to start calling him Mogli.”“I love Jace’s eyes. ““Jace and Uncle Chad taking a break.”

This was such a great trip. It reminded me of the trips we made to Catalina State Park with my cousins when I was a child.  Not photographed are the pictures from our picnic, the trips behind the bushes to go pee and the hot dog toss initiated by Uncle Chad.

Blessings!

Psalm 8

“O Lord, our Lord, How majestic is Thy name in all the earth, Who hast displayed Thy splendor above the heavens! From the mouth of infants and nursing babes Thou hast established strength, Because of Thine adversaries, To make the enemy and the revengeful cease. When I consider Thy heavens, the  work of Thy fingers, The moon and the stars, which Thou hast ordained; What is man, that Thou dost take thought of him? And the son of man, that Thou dost care for him? Yet Thou hast made him a little lower than God, And dost crown him with glory and majesty! Thou dost make him to rule over the works of Thy hands; Thou hast put all things under his feet, all sheep and oxen, And also the beasts of the field. The birds of the heaven,and the fish of the sea, Whatever passes through the paths of the seas. O Lord, our Lord. How majestic is Thy name in all the earth!”